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What Do You Choose When Your Prayers Seem Unanswered?

Saying good-bye…

I’ve been a Caregiver for 24 years and counting and this morning, just as I was expecting his nurse to walk through the door, I get a text message that she will not be coming…

Now, this was not a huge shock by any means, as out of the 3 nurses that we are lucky enough to have in our lives, they have collectively canceled out of their shifts 13 times since Jan. 1! Which in and of itself is difficult but add to the fact that 2 1/2 years ago, I decided I wanted to try working again and I question, did I make the right decision?

Today, my world traveling daughter is leaving on another adventure! I scheduled the morning to be with her and to take her to the train station.
Ready to depart…10 minutes behind schedule…

So, I woke up the boy…dressed him and fed him… transferred him to his wheelchair and it began to snow… Warmed up the van…wheeled him in…and we are low on gas…we are 10 minutes behind schedule and as we start our trek, the windshield wipers are tearing apart! Lots of salt trucks on the road, so they are not too bad and we make it to the train station 2 minutes late… but the train is still there! Tickets are bought and our farewell is met   
She boards the train…

(Now, you can’t possibly make this stuff up, as I am typing this I get a text message that a different nurse will not be in on Thursday or Friday of this week, I mean… Come on…)
So, more than ever, this question nags at my mind… Is this my journey?

I have 2 choices in front of me…

Realize this day is really like every other, it can and will happen again and again! So I can give up my business and retreat and times will be hard…
OR
Realize this day is really like every other, it will happen again and again. So I can choose to be a good caregiver AND be a good business owner WITHIN the circumstances I am given and times may be hard…

BUT

I ask myself…

Are these obstacles here to show me to stop?
OR
Are these obstacles here to show me to continue?

The question is simple. But the answer?

I think it’s “easier”, if you will, to see this as a sign to stop. That this is an ongoing pattern that will not get any easier and there’s not much that can be done, so why add the extra pressure of trying to start anything new, much less a business? A caregiver has very little control over their circumstances.

So, with the ball in my court,

I choose to believe that…

The God I pray to for guidance did not place a business opportunity before me to see me fail at it…

The God I pray to for comfort did not give me today's circumstances to break my will, rather he gave them to me to show me they will continue to come IF I don’t work (hard) to change them…

The God I pray to for me to find my purpose has helped me to create a team of people that are helping others with hope, health and financial freedom.

The God I pray to did not place the people I serve in my path so that I would let them down… and maybe, just maybe, he wants me to be an example to them of how they too, can overcome a tough season of their own…

So, what path do you choose? Are your unanswered prayers perhaps the answer to your prayer?

The path sometimes is a slippery slope...






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